Words get caught in my throught
Their edges catch and scrape against the flow
I bleed with the effort to keep them hidden
I seep into myself-
Knowing how you hate the stains...
Don't you understand?
I cant speak to you
stop asking questions
If I dare to open up, Ill stain you
With my insecurities
and my conspiracies...
With everything that IS me.
Dont you understand?
Ever unsteady, ever unstable...
After a life of eggshells-
Empty, sleepless nights
I find I am not alone
comforted yet confused, I wonder-
Why do you want to be here?
Symphony to Somethin' Else by Azileigh, literature
Literature
Symphony to Somethin' Else
You are my symphony.
Filling my heart
with complicated happiness.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else...
Its all your fault,
you know.
I could never listen
to the ordinary tunes;
never again.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else...
Stroking a fire
in the coldest of souls.
Such a discrace that
I could never find words
to rhyme with your beautiful face.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else.
Why you shine
you light on me
I'll never understand.
Never impatient, demanding;
never spitful.
You are always there,
even when I push you away
with all I have.
'Cause you're somethin' els
I'm fine.
Don't worry.
Stop asking,
the answer
won't change.
Give up-
I have...
See me?
'Course not.
Never do.
No point-
Just sayin'.
Don't care?
Me either.
Go away...
My heart beats fast...
Slowly strangling on strings
of words I'm too
cowardly to say.
Think!
Think!
Whats more important;
your sanity or mine?
Crawling through the vast mess
of my mind-
will i ever escape?
Think!
Think!
My mind is too crowded...
for me AND you.
Leave me be
I beg of you.
Your presence here
is the source
of my insanity.
Think!
If I could just manage to
Think!
Id stand a chance-
But, my love,
you do know...
you'll first
have to let go
of the strings?
I look out the window
as my coffe grows cold.
I feel your tension
stagnant...dour.
You want to know why-
why you are here.
I wish to be direct.
I feel it is best.
I don't like you...
I don't love you-
anymore...
Just leave my life be...
but the words;
they wont come.
My mouth becomes dry
with unspoken words
sitting on my toungue
making me want to gag.
I take a sip
Of my cold coffee
but it is bitter
just adding to the bitterness
of the words between my locked lips.
You sigh out of boredom-
I know.
So I fumble for something-
anything placating to say...
And so it goes
I fall into the same routine.
I ask how things
Words get caught in my throught
Their edges catch and scrape against the flow
I bleed with the effort to keep them hidden
I seep into myself-
Knowing how you hate the stains...
Don't you understand?
I cant speak to you
stop asking questions
If I dare to open up, Ill stain you
With my insecurities
and my conspiracies...
With everything that IS me.
Dont you understand?
Ever unsteady, ever unstable...
After a life of eggshells-
Empty, sleepless nights
I find I am not alone
comforted yet confused, I wonder-
Why do you want to be here?
Symphony to Somethin' Else by Azileigh, literature
Literature
Symphony to Somethin' Else
You are my symphony.
Filling my heart
with complicated happiness.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else...
Its all your fault,
you know.
I could never listen
to the ordinary tunes;
never again.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else...
Stroking a fire
in the coldest of souls.
Such a discrace that
I could never find words
to rhyme with your beautiful face.
'Cause you're somethin' else-
just somethin' else.
Why you shine
you light on me
I'll never understand.
Never impatient, demanding;
never spitful.
You are always there,
even when I push you away
with all I have.
'Cause you're somethin' els
I'm fine.
Don't worry.
Stop asking,
the answer
won't change.
Give up-
I have...
See me?
'Course not.
Never do.
No point-
Just sayin'.
Don't care?
Me either.
Go away...
My heart beats fast...
Slowly strangling on strings
of words I'm too
cowardly to say.
Think!
Think!
Whats more important;
your sanity or mine?
Crawling through the vast mess
of my mind-
will i ever escape?
Think!
Think!
My mind is too crowded...
for me AND you.
Leave me be
I beg of you.
Your presence here
is the source
of my insanity.
Think!
If I could just manage to
Think!
Id stand a chance-
But, my love,
you do know...
you'll first
have to let go
of the strings?
I look out the window
as my coffe grows cold.
I feel your tension
stagnant...dour.
You want to know why-
why you are here.
I wish to be direct.
I feel it is best.
I don't like you...
I don't love you-
anymore...
Just leave my life be...
but the words;
they wont come.
My mouth becomes dry
with unspoken words
sitting on my toungue
making me want to gag.
I take a sip
Of my cold coffee
but it is bitter
just adding to the bitterness
of the words between my locked lips.
You sigh out of boredom-
I know.
So I fumble for something-
anything placating to say...
And so it goes
I fall into the same routine.
I ask how things
He wants me to believe in him,
but I can't
press my fingers to the pulse
of a vaporous anomaly.
My mind is science and passion,
the sight of red lips
is meaningless without the taste
of a kiss.
Stars align and dance so beautifully,
but we know
it's the floor that's really spinning
yet we teach our children
the morbid tradition
of whispering wishes to dying lights.
He wants me to believe in him,
but I can't
until he can tell me
just what I am believing in.